My process through Desteni started in 2009. I have written extensively on who/what I 'thought' I was before I started process. In that, I considered myself to be a loving, positive person, thus raising my children 'in love'.
So, my children were 28 and 29 when I first started process. Now, at first, coming across the information through Desteni that exposed the 'lie' I was living, I experienced a complete breakdown of my belief system. Where I actually spent a considerable amount of time in tears.
My children, witnessing this were the most effected as they were the ones that were raised by this 'love and light persona' that I had believed was real.
So in the first few years, as I was newly walking my process, both of my children wanted nothing to do with what I was undertaking, as their first encounter with Desteni was through witnessing me in a state of distress. So they labeled it as 'negative, dark', and something they wanted no part of, where my daughter actually expressed, "I feel like I've lost my mother".
Now, I've written in previous blogs, that through the years, and as I started changing and becoming more stable, my daughter started opening up to the value of process and with that slowly started incorporating using the breath, identifying characters/patterns/programming and when faced with making decisions, considering what was best for all. We also became close again.
And now, this past year, my son, who has been quiet about this for these past years, has opened up to me about his initial experience back in 2009 and how it was very hard for him as he had taken all the 'beliefs' that I had raised him in and incorporated it and he really didn't know what to make of this new turn of events, so he basically kept quiet.
However, again, through seeing me change, becoming more stable and now 6 years into walking process being able to expand and express myself, he not only sees the value in process but has/is slowly incorporated it within himself, to which I was quite surprised at his level of understanding.
One of the great things of walking process with your children is they know all your characters/patterning. So, when I'm with either one of them, they both, will respond to my 'silent backchat'! Which is really cool, because they will call me out! And not only that, but when a 'character' pops up they immediately recognize and identify it! They also stop me if I start 'preaching' about process, which supports me immensely!
Not only have we developed a close relationship again, but we are able to support each other when facing our programming, assisting each other in facing these points that come up and need direction.
It is really cool when I talk with them and they will be explaining a situation in their lives and how their approach to the solution is much more practical and stabilizing for themselves and others.
So a lot has changed between us and for us in these 6 years. It has/is been a process. One step at a time, breath by breath!