Saturday, April 19, 2014

Day 509 - A Conversation With My Daughter


My daughter and I were recently talking when she turned to me and said, "I have a point you can write about".  She then proceeded to tell me about something I did the last time I was at her house, which turned out to be one of the reasons she has not invited me back.

Now, this point, I am going to expand about in another blog, which basically is me, being nitpicky and critical when I am at her house, regarding the cleanliness of her home, which I also carry through with my son, being verbally critical of the cleanliness of his children.

The cool thing was as my daughter shared with me what I did and how she reacted, I was able to listen to her, where there was no movement within me and I actually thanked her for sharing this as it definitely was a point/pattern that I needed to re-open.

The whole point came up in the first place, as we were talking, I said 'Aren't you glad I'm not all gushy over you anymore?' Because as a Love and Lighter I would fawn over people and especially my family in overtures of 'expressions of love'.

So, she agreed with me, and that is when she brought up this other point.

My relationship with my daughter has really changed these past few years, especially this last year, where we are able to share practical support, come up with practical solutions, where I am able to share with her process, as she is aware of my blogging, my involvement with LIG, where in the past she did not want to hear anything about Desteni, which has drastically changed, where she said to me "mom, I listen to you more than you realize," to which, she has made a number of practical, physical changes in her life recently, that were based on 'what is best for all concerned'.

She then turned to me and asked me 'Is there a point that I need to look at?" I answered "Really?" To which she answered "yes".  So, to say the least, I was pleasantly surprised, and I answered her "Don't look away from the suffering in this world", and she then shared with me a recent experience of hers where she was faced with just this and she did not turn away.

 I told her I was going to write about our conversation.

So, I have found by talking to my daughter practically, simply, we are re-establishing a relationship based in honesty and practical support, to which our dialogue has changed, the words that we use to support ourselves has changed, how we approach solutions has changed.

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Tuesday, April 15, 2014

Day 507 - Depending on Another - Part 2

                                                                                        Desteni Artist - Kelly Posey

Continuing from Day 506 - Depending on Another

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place a point of stability and calm within and as another, outside of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to depend on another to give me that sense of stability and calm, as I see/realize/understand that in depending on another to 'give' me that sense of stability and calm, I am, in fact, not standing as stable and calm within and as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel motivated when in the presence of another, as I see/realize/understand that feeling motivated is an energetic experience of the mind, shifting me into an alternate reality, superimposed over the reality of the physical, to which I can instead direct myself in self-honesty, where I am the starting point, making the decision to direct myself to take action.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, when faced with a new experience/endeavor, to depend on someone other than myself, thereby standing in separation of myself and another as myself, expecting them to provide me with the impetus to direct this new endeavor, instead of taking the knowledge and information that they provide and then me taking action in the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use justifications of feeling unsure of myself to diminish and limit myself into taking action, participating in backchat 'oh, I'm just not sure how to approach this, he makes it look so easy, but he's always out there, he's had lots of years of doing this, he's had lots of training, I'm not that comfortable about approaching people'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe others will not react favorably when I approach them because I do not react favorably when I am approached, as I see/realize/understand that what I'm doing has merit, and all I have to do is share the information, practically and not from a starting point of  a 'positive-feeling experience'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize/understand that I will meet many people in the field of network marketing that are 'positive' that are trained to be 'positive', which does not mean I cannot associate and work with these people, as I see/realize/understand that this is an opportunity to face/investigate this pattern within myself, directing this point so I stand constant and stable, that I present the information from this starting point, not accepting or allowing myself to go into a positive-feeling motivated experience.

When and as I see myself participating in backchat, diminishing and limiting myself, I stop and I breathe, I look at the information before me, I take steps here in the physical, then directing myself from a point of stability within and as myself.

When and as I see myself feeling motivated within the company of my colleague, I stop and I breathe, slowing myself down so as to release me from a positive-feeling energetic experience of the mind.

When and as I see myself depending on another for stability within a point, I stop and I breathe, bringing myself back here to the moment, to my current reality, looking at what is right before me, assisting and supporting myself so I am my starting point of stability within and as myself.

I see/realize/understand that in facing/investigating uncertainty within a new endeavor, I am, in fact, facing, releasing a fear of the mind, which is not real, which serves no practical purpose, and as such

I commit myself to as I am walking this new endeavor, to push myself through the resistance and fear that comes up through the mind, applying breath in self-awareness, practically assisting and supporting myself to stand stable, calm, self-directed.


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Saturday, April 12, 2014

Day 506 - Depending on Another


The night before last, I awoke in the early morning hours, feeling anxious and agitated, where my mind kept running over and over this scenario I was obsessing about. I was not able to stabilize myself through breathing, so I got up and wrote down all these words that were running around in my mind.

I had been 'thinking' about this situation which involves someone else in my life for about a week or more now.  And, every time these thoughts would come up, I would breathe and speak self-forgiveness and self-corrective statements, and in the evening, I had also written these statements in my notebook, yet I see now I was not speaking these statements from a starting point of stability within myself, so it was apparent that I had not completely directed myself in this point, and had, in fact, suppressed this point. 

So, after I wrote all of this out, where I actually texted this person all that was 'on my mind' it seemed there was a point of stability within me, I calmed down and was able to go back to sleep.

 A little later, as I was driving to work, the backchat started again, the anxiousness reappeared, as I was now in expectation as I was waiting to receive a response from this person.  So, as I was driving, I spoke self-forgiveness, applying breath, bringing this point to myself, as within my mind I was blaming the other person.

Then an interesting thing happened. While I was working, I received a text from this person, and in reading his response, there was an immediate release within myself, where I 'felt' myself calm down,  I 'felt' better about the situation, the person.

So, I asked myself what is it that you are receiving from this person that you are not giving to yourself, that you are not standing as yourself?

When I opened up the point with Sunette, she explained the design of Emotional Attachment - emotional attachments are very specific, wherein, when one had form an emotional attachment to another being, there will be ONE particular energy experience connected to that ONE being. So in other words, with every being we have emotional attachment to, each one of these beings would represent one particular and specific energy experience that we unconsciously believe that we are unable to stand as, as an expression of ourselves and thus, we require having a being around to activate the energy experience for us to access it.

Now, to understand Emotional Attachment, one have to understand the basic principle of Energy - Energy is ALWAYS polarized, when positive energy exists, Negative energy Exists. To expand your understanding on Energy - please visit EQAFE and listen to the Quantum Mind Self Awareness Series
- See more at: http://mayaprocess.blogspot.com/2014/03/emotional-attachment-and-physical_30.html#sthash.2a1IKT2V.dpuf
When I opened up the point with Sunette, she explained the design of Emotional Attachment - emotional attachments are very specific, wherein, when one had form an emotional attachment to another being, there will be ONE particular energy experience connected to that ONE being. So in other words, with every being we have emotional attachment to, each one of these beings would represent one particular and specific energy experience that we unconsciously believe that we are unable to stand as, as an expression of ourselves and thus, we require having a being around to activate the energy experience for us to access it.
Now, to understand Emotional Attachment, one have to understand the basic principle of Energy - Energy is ALWAYS polarized, when positive energy exists, Negative energy Exists. To expand your understanding on Energy - please visit EQAFE and listen to the Quantum Mind Self Awareness Series
- See more at: http://mayaprocess.blogspot.com/2014/03/emotional-attachment-and-physical_30.html#sthash.2a1IKT2V.dpuf
When I opened up the point with Sunette, she explained the design of Emotional Attachment - emotional attachments are very specific, wherein, when one had form an emotional attachment to another being, there will be ONE particular energy experience connected to that ONE being. So in other words, with every being we have emotional attachment to, each one of these beings would represent one particular and specific energy experience that we unconsciously believe that we are unable to stand as, as an expression of ourselves and thus, we require having a being around to activate the energy experience for us to access it.
Now, to understand Emotional Attachment, one have to understand the basic principle of Energy - Energy is ALWAYS polarized, when positive energy exists, Negative energy Exists. To expand your understanding on Energy - please visit EQAFE and listen to the Quantum Mind Self Awareness Series
- See more at: http://mayaprocess.blogspot.com/2014/03/emotional-attachment-and-physical_30.html#sthash.2a1IKT2V.dpuf
I placed this person before me, and I realized when I am with him, I feel motivated and yet I also feel calm and stable with regard to this field of endeavor, which is new to me, that he is introducing me to. So, in this I see that I am having a positive-feeling experience towards this person that then shifts into a negative-feeling experience when my expectations are not met.

So, in both cases I see/realize/understand that I am not standing equal and one with this person, instead standing in separation, where I initially feel motivated to pursue this endeavor when I am with him, using him as a point of stability and calm, then falling into expectation and blame when things don't proceed according to my imaginings.

In my next blog, I will write the self-forgiveness and self-corrective applications.


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Sunday, April 6, 2014

Day 504 - Physical Application


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Continuing from my last blog - Day 503 - Worry


As I wrote in my last blog, my grandson was undergoing surgery to repair one of his heart valves.  So, initially I observed fear/worry come up within me, the day before the surgery.

I have written extensively on this point, writing self-forgiveness/self-corrective applications.  So, I realized this was an opportunity to direct myself to change.  I observed myself within this 24 hour period, and every time that emotion would come up, I would breathe and live/apply the change, then bring the written statements of self-forgiveness and self-correction here into application in the physical.

Thereby I was able to remain constant and stable, not going into 'hoping all would go well' not going into fear 'what if something happens', just being here, slowing myself down, aware of myself, my body, my breathing, my current reality.

So, the surgery was successful, my grandson is home, recuperating, I was able to see him yesterday, and through this I did not put stress upon my body, I did not fall into 'fear/worry'. I was able to direct myself, I was able to change.

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Thursday, April 3, 2014

Day 503 - Worry


My grandson was born with a heart murmur.  He is now 8 years old and his condition has never been visible.  However, one of his valves needs some assistance in opening correctly to ensure proper blood flow, which is causing the murmur which when listened to through a stethoscope has a whooshing sound.

The doctors have been monitoring his condition since his birth, and it has finally reached the stage where they will go ahead with the procedure of placing a balloon in this valve to keep it open correctly.

So, tomorrow my son and daughter-in-law will take my grandson to Children's Hospital for this operation.  The procedure will take 2-3 hours, after which he will remain at the hospital for at least 6 hours for observation.

I have known of his condition since he was born and have actually researched it on the internet, and since heart murmurs can be quite common, and I never witnessed any physical symptoms from him, I just always 'assumed' that this was a benign situation that would correct itself as his body matured.  Actually, wondering if they were making more out of it than it was.

So, now the actuality of him having this procedure has become a reality.  And I find myself trying not to be concerned and worried.

And just in that statement alone of 'trying', I see that I am suppressing worrying about him, as every time I think about him being operated on there is definite movement within me.

So, for now I am directing myself to slow myself down and breathe, standing as a pillar of support, as the operation is not even here yet, it is tomorrow, and I only have this moment, and worrying about what might happen serves no practical purpose.

I will direct myself in the next 24 hours and continue in my next blog.


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Tuesday, April 1, 2014

Day 502 - Rushing Ahead


In my last blog, I opened the point of feeling anxious, while participating in the 'belief' that I was falling behind.

Well, today, as I was logging in to one of my sites, I put in the wrong password.  So, what I saw in that moment, is I was rushing ahead in my mind, to what I was going to do, lost in my mind, thereby missing that exact moment, because I did not remember, in that moment, what I had written for my password, as I had 'left the building'!!

So, this really ties in with my last blog, of 'falling behind', as I was 'rushing ahead' in my mind, finding myself wanting, accepting and allowing myself to feel anxious about falling behind, because in my mind, that was rushing ahead, I had not reached where my mind wanted to go.

What could have been, what has been, what can be, what will be, what shall be - all is unimportant.  What is Here is all that any being ever has."  Bernard Poolman

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rush ahead in my mind, while performing a physical act, and in that moment, miss me performing that act, miss directing myself in that moment, as I was too busy rushing ahead in my mind, to what I wanted to do next.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, as I see/realize/understand that if I am rushing ahead in my mind, already picturing what I will be doing next, I have shifted into an alternate reality, I am in my imagination, projecting into the immediate future, and thus missing the opportunity of the moment to stand free and clear, directing myself in stability.

I also see, that I have a habitual statement that I catch myself, all the time, saying to myself, 'let me do this real quick', which, lol, isn't even grammatically correct.  Yet, every time I am about do tend to a task, these words pop up in my mind, as I see/realize/understand, that by saying these words I am already projecting myself into the future, seeing this task as done, thereby, again, rushing ahead in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in a habitual word pattern of 'let me do this real quick', where my mind wants to just be done with the task, already thinking of what is to be done next, or even, just having the task done, so I can then do what I want to do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that as long as I'm rushing ahead in my mind, trying to do a task quickly, thereby not being present, in the moment, I am coming from a starting point of the mind, which causes stress upon my physical body, that I am unaware of because I am in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to thus miss the simple physical act, of whatever I am doing, because in rushing ahead in my mind, I forget, in an instant, what I have just done.

When and as I catch myself telling myself I will do something 'real quick', I stop and I breathe, releasing myself from this habitual word pattern, that only rushes me ahead in my mind, slowing myself down, bringing my awareness, here, then directing myself in my current reality, practically assisting and supporting myself to change, in the moment, and direct myself so I am stable, so I am clear in each moment, fully engaged in the task at hand.

I commit myself to breathe and slow myself down as I am performing my daily tasks, as I am doing my computer work, so my starting point is self-directed, as I choose what I need to attend to, and then assisting and supporting myself in practical living application.


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Sunday, March 30, 2014

Day 501 - Falling Behind


I have recently been in the process of venturing into expanding myself business-wise, thus adding to my schedule, in addition to my regular job and responsibilities.

Thus, today, as I have been tending to what I normally do, within my process, ie., participating on the computer, staying up to date, as I opened my computer, I participated in backchat, 'oh, I've fallen behind', where I then experienced a tightness in my chest, feeling anxious as I 'believed I  needed to play 'catch-up''.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when I deviated from my normal schedule, to become, anxious, participating in backchat 'oh, I've got so much to catch-up on, I've fallen behind'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience a tightness in my chest and across my forehead, as I literally held my breath, believing that I really needed to push myself to get caught up, as I see/realize that this is from a starting point of the mind, thus in a moment separating myself from myself, instead of just breathing, slowing myself down, looking at what needs to be done, and then directing myself moment by moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to 'believe' that I was sort of in the zone, making sure that I pushed myself, applied/directed myself, and then when met with a change of schedule, an adding to my already responsibilities, I fell behind, thus accepting and allowing myself to feel anxious, and be hard on myself, for not doing all that needed to be attended to, to be directed by me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that 'being hard on myself' because I have judged myself as not pushing myself enough to make sure that my added responsibilities did not interfere with the responsibilities that I already needed to attend to, is really me, as the mind, participating in an energetic reaction, which is not real, which serves no practical purpose.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that walking process is a moment by moment process, applying/directing myself here in the physical and that by expanding myself in the world system, as the world system, I am really taking the opportunity to quantify my process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize, that I can, physically/practically, write out what needs to be attended to within a day, and as my responsibilities to myself have expanded, writing out a new schedule can, in fact, be assisting and supportive..

When and as I see myself becoming anxious because I have not done all that I 'want' to do within a day, I stop and I breathe, and I then look for a practical/physical solution.

I commit myself to sit down and write out exactly what I need to do within the course of a day, so I can see, before me, what I need to do, thus making it very clear for me, as to my duties, and direct myself accordingly.

When and as I see myself reacting and being hard on myself because I have not allowed enough 'time' to tend to my responsibilities and my 'new' responsibilities, I stop and I breathe, slowing myself, as I see/realize/understand, that this serves no practical purpose, and actually stands in the way of me directing myself and making changes to my daily schedule to accommodate my new activities.

I commit myself to not give up on myself, and not give up on my new activities, new ventures, as I see/realize/understand that expanding myself out into the world system allows me to quantify my process and assist and support myself and others as myself as within my new ventures/activities I am placing myself in a position to meet and interact with new people on a daily basis.

I commit myself to as my activities expand, to make sure I am clear and stable, adjusting my schedule as needed, so as to make time for what I need to attend to, thereby, not accepting or allowing myself to become anxious because I 'believe' I am falling behind, making sure that all my 'ducks are in a row' so to speak, thereby releasing myself from 'becoming hard' on myself which serves no practical purpose and is really just a waste of 'time'.

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