Saturday, September 13, 2014

Day 562 - Change is Inevitable

 
                                                                                            Desteni Artists

Continuing from Day 561 - You're Never Too Old To Change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in backchat 'I'll let the younger members participate in the hangouts'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to make myself so visible by participating in the hangouts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in 'what if I don't have anything to say', as an excuse/justification to participating in the hangouts.

Then the hangouts changed, and we started 'senior hangouts' and I found that none of my justifications/excuses could continue as I am the senior, senior of our group and that it was up to me to push through this fear of being visible, fear of being 'seen' as older.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to participate in the hangouts because I would be seen as 'older'.

I forgive myself that at I have accepted and allowed myself to distract myself from this 'fear of being more visible' as it did not 'feel' that strong, sort of muted, and thus I justified that there was no fear, just a decision not to participate at this time, as I see/realize/understand that this was just that, a justification, keeping me in a limited/diminished capacity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that there are literally millions of people my age, and all ages for that matter, that would benefit from the tools and message of Desteni, and as a member of Desteni, it is my responsibility to share what has assisted and supported me to change and make practical, living solutions in my life.

When and as I see myself wanting to justify why I should not expand myself, my process, out into the world, reaching out to others, I stop and I breathe, and in that moment I direct myself to change, to stand as a pillar of support for myself and others as myself, by reaching out, by being visible, by creating relationships with others, by being visible on social networks, pushing through resistance, getting out of my comfort zone, and as such

I commit myself to be the change I wish to see in the world, starting with myself and thus expanding myself out into the world, and as such

I commit myself to share/live the Principles of The Desteni of Living.


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Thursday, September 11, 2014

Day 561 - You're Never Too Old To Change


I just participated in my first Desteni Senior Hangout.  Now, Desteni has been broadcasting hangouts for some time now and have just introduced a new group hangout of the senior members of Desteni sharing their perspective of different topics from a 'senior' point of view along with aligning with the practical tools of Desteni as assistance and support to change.

So, not only was this my first senior hangout, it was, in fact, my first hangout participation. 

I had met with resistance to participate in these hangouts, and so accepted and allowed myself to use justifications to stand in the way of me expanding myself.

Ultimately, I just went for it and participated.  And, the interesting thing is the topic was about 'computer resistance' and 'change'.

So, what was my experience of myself as I participated?  I enjoyed the exchange with the other two members.  I enjoyed sharing my experience of how I was able to push through the resistance to using a computer and how I was able to change. I did not experience myself as nervous or apprehensive and wondered why I had waited so long to push through this resistance and just go for it.

A supportive EQAFE interview that was just released - Stop In the Name of Fear addresses this very point that beneath every resistance that we face within ourselves lies fear.

So, what fears lay beneath my resistance to participate in these hangouts?

I will investigate that in my next blog along with self-forgiveness....


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Monday, September 8, 2014

Day 560 - A Life in Moderation

 
My father is 93 years old.  He is in excellent health, has the heart and body (internal organs) of a man half his age (according to his physician).  He still drives, does not need a walker or cane.  He has all of his own teeth.  Does not have hearing aids.  Shows no signs of dementia.

I have never seen my father over-eat, I have never seen him over-indulge in anything for that matter.  He has lived a life of moderation, never over-taxing his body, getting proper rest, taking moderate exercise always taking care of himself/his body.  In fact he maintains his life the same way that he has always maintained his body, in moderation, with discipline and determination.

After reading Anna's Blog, I realized that I too, wanted to interview my dad, as I realized that I had never asked/investigated this subject with him and what I discovered is certain facts about his life that I never knew about, had never taken the time to ask, to investigate.

So, I called my dad and told him my observations about him living a life in moderation, being disciplined, decisive, determined, always being responsible and I asked him if he was always this way.

My dad was born in 1921 in Middletown, CT.  His father and mother came to this country from Sicily, yet before my dad was born my grandfather returned to Sicily leaving my grandmother pregnant with my father. (I did not know this exact fact).

 He stated that growing up it was just him and my grandmother and that she had to work so he was left on his own a lot.  Yet, he did not use this as an excuse/justification to act out, 'get into trouble'.  And, that even as a boy, a teenager he maintained a life that he calls having 'will power', and that yes, in fact, he was always moderate and disciplined in his choices.

My father has always, once he's made a decision, acted upon it, always followed through. He always used to say to us kids "if you have a job to do, just do it!", words that he lived by.

Another interesting point about his life is that he traveled a lot in his work, as a sales manager, having a wide territory and reps under him.  Yet he did not go out drinking 'with the guys' after work.  Instead he would go to his room, get a good night's rest and wherever he was in the country, he would take advantage of his time off from work to explore/sightsee, his favorite trip was to the Grand Canyon. So, I see this as how he always utilized his time well, being self-responsible, how he took advantage of where he was to expand himself.

It's interesting that after all these years, I am just now looking at my father with actually 'new eyes'.  Instead of just seeing him as what he 'believes' in, I see that he is a living example/expression of moderation, discipline, decisiveness, determination, responsibility.

And, instead of reaping the consequences of his life choices, he is reaping the benefits of how he always expressed himself, how he always took care of himself, his body, his life, and thus I see how I can apply this to my life, so I too can effectively live a life in moderation.


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Tuesday, September 2, 2014

Day 559 - Physical Reaction - The Quantum Mind


https://eqafe.com/p/reactions-physicality-quantum-mind-self-awareness

"How can you be in a Quantum Mind reaction without even realizing it?
How can you detect it within the sound of your voice?
What happens in your mind and body when you go into a Quantum Mind reaction?
How does a Quantum Mind reaction disguise itself to make you believe that you are not reacting?"

I was having a conversation with another member, then while talking, my voice changed, became softer in volume and my throat felt constricted, and I 'felt' a sort of shutting down within myself.

I immediately noted this change and the other noticed it too.  So, in that moment I saw that I was in a quantum mind reaction.

Now, the thing is, if I had not already listened to this interview, I would not have been aware of what was happening as this reaction happened very quickly and I did not 'feel' emotion.

So, in that moment I was able to see what I was participating in, how my quantum mind went into a personality system and how the quantum mind attempts to protect the ego, instead I was able to look at what my quantum mind wanted to suppress, did not want to look at and then direct myself and change in real time.

I highly recommend investing in this EQAFE interview!

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Monday, September 1, 2014

Day 558 - Approachable - Changing in Real Time

                                                                                        Desteni Artists

Day 434 - Unapproachable
Day 435 - Approachable

I see/realize/understand that choosing to be approachable is not an experience but a decision I make for myself, as myself in each moment.

I wrote these blogs last year in which I investigated this point of being unapproachable, having resistance to others approaching me and resistance in approaching others, realizing that this was a long-standing program/pattern of being unapproachable, 'feeling' self-sufficient, contained within myself, thus judging others, not relating to others, standing in separation of others in a pre-programmed pattern of superiority.  Also realizing that the only time in this life that I fully engaged myself with communicating with others was when I was 'high' or when I was coming from a starting point of the 'love and light character', which immediately made me 'feel' more open/compassionate/nurturing/social towards others.

So, what has changed this past year?  I have changed regarding this point! 

First of all, I started making eye contact with others when I was out and about.  I started greeting others in passing.  I took the time to stop and make small talk with others, really listening to them, being fully present.

This was also a great opportunity to quantify process, as when reactions and/or judgments arose within myself, I realized that I was judging/reacting to that which still existed within and as me, and that which I still held in separation of myself.  There were incidents where I would later write out my reactions, applying self-forgiveness, self- corrective/commitment statements and other times where I would direct myself right in the moment, slowing myself down, being aware of my breathing, applying self-forgiveness/commitment statements within myself, letting the reaction go, being Here in the physical, and thus changing in real time.

Opening up and communicating with others, without a perceived idea of how I should be, how they should be, has, in actuality been a relief, not having an ideal that myself and others must live up to.  Just enjoying the company of another.

And, the cool thing is that as I have approached others, others have approached me.  So, I am the living expression of approachable.

Join us at Desteni!  Start a process that really, truly works in changing you, practically and in common sense, within the directive principle of oneness and equality as what is best for all. Seeing another as yourself, treating another as you would like to be treated.

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Thursday, August 28, 2014

Day 557 - Not Realizing Your Full Potential


https://eqafe.com/p/not-realizing-your-full-potential-life-review

"How did this man’s tendency to resist pushing himself beyond his limitations eventually lead to him diminishing himself and his expression in his life?
What experience within him caused him to not want to put in the effort to push himself to become more?
How can you assist and support yourself to identify this experience and transcend it to ensure that you don’t diminish and limit yourself?"

I highly recommend investing in this EQAFE interview, which addresses the point of how to push through the resistance that comes up within oneself, when one feels tired/heavy, wanting to give up, which in essence is giving up on oneself.

What question can be asked to address the point of not creating oneself? What are you resisting?  What action can be taken?

Other EQAFE interviews that are very assisting on this point:

https://eqafe.com/p/unmotivated-reptilians-part-323
https://eqafe.com/p/procrastination-introduction-atlanteans-part-205 - The beginning of the series
https://eqafe.com/p/lethargy-introduction-atlanteans-part-212 - the beginning of the series

I also highly recommend any and all of the EQAFE interviews, which are supportive, informative, and provide the tools for practical application in one's life, to change oneself, to stand up and take responsibility for oneself.

Thus, creating here in the physical, a true human being that stands equal and one with all within the directive principle of what is best for all in all ways always.

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Tuesday, August 26, 2014

Day 556 - Slowing Myself Down

                                                                                           Desteni Artists

Continuing from Day 555 - The Dreaded 101

So, here is my  route going to work, jumping on the 126 for a couple of miles, which then flows into the 101, which I drive for approximately 4 miles and then I'm on the 33 going to Ojai.

In my last blog I mentioned that the 101 follows the coast up north.  Well, it follows the coast right in my town of Ventura! Continues to follow the coast going north through Santa Barbara.  South of Ventura, it veers inland.

I observed myself driving on these routes, where in my mind I have created a preference for the 126 and the 33 and a dread for the 101.  So, while driving on the 126, I was relaxed, and then when it veers onto the 101, I noticed a tensing of my body, to which I breathed and slowed myself down, bringing my awareness back to my body, back to my car, back to my current surroundings, which were the Pacific Ocean on my left and foothills on my right.  While converging onto the 101 there is more traffic, and traffic 'seems' to be moving faster.  And, then as I took the 33, my body automatically relaxed again, which showed me that I have been driving from a starting point of my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience driving as an experience of the mind, relaxing when driving on a route that I enjoy, tensing up while driving on a route that I dread.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dread driving on the 101, where I have given a negative charge to the word dread.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel myself tense up when driving on the 101, 'feeling' the pace of the cars picking up, feeling the density of cars/traffic, to which I react negatively, participating in backchat, 'I only have to be on this route for a few miles, and then I'll be off, where I can relax and breathe',  as I see/realize/understand that I have created in my mind the idea that I can only breathe and relax once I'm off the 101, thereby missing the opportunity of just driving, being present in the moment, in my body, while on the 101, thus changing in real time, releasing myself from the program/pattern of fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make travel decisions based upon my dread of the 101.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a barrier of the 101 between myself and where my daughter lives, as the most direct route is to just jump on the 101, to which I have built up a resistance, so that when faced with visiting my daughter, on several occasions I have decided not to go, just so I do not have to drive on the 101.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to follow memories of past driving times on the 101, getting stuck in traffic, being sandwiched in dense traffic with cars and/or trucks which I have accepted and allowed myself to feel nervous and tense.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience myself as feeling claustrophobic when traveling on the 101 heading into Los Angeles, feeling my heart racing, having to continuously direct myself to breathe and slow down, where ultimately I have found other routes so as to not have to place myself on this route, yet I see/realize/understand that this experience of the mind, as me, has become suppressed and still exists within and as me.

I see/realize/understand that I can choose alternate routes, as long as I face/investigate what my starting point is.

When and as I am driving on the 101, which I will be driving on the 101, as it goes right through my town, I stop and I breathe, I slow myself down and do not accept or allow myself to make decisions to avoid the 101based in fear/dread/apprehension, which I have reacted negatively to within and as my mind, as I see/realize/understand that I have charged these words with a negative charge, and then reacted from these negatively charged definitions.

When and as I decide to visit my daughter, I do not go into my imagination about what I will encounter on the 101, instead I stop and I breathe, and when driving, to change myself in real time by slowing myself down and breathing in self-awareness of myself, my body, my current driving reality.

When and as I see myself tensing up while driving on the 101, I stop and I breathe, I slow myself down and release myself from this pattern/program that I have created in my mind that separates me from my current reality of driving, bringing my awareness back to my physical body, to the physicality of the car, the placement of my hands and feet, being aware of the other cars/traffic, and physical surroundings, and thus changing in real time.

I commit myself to remain here, as the living application, constant and stable, breathing in self-awareness, no matter where I am driving, no matter what the road conditions, thus assisting and supporting myself to slow myself down, thus releasing myself from 'mind driving'.


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